What to do

All my life I've been searching for something
Something never comes never leads to nothing
Nothing satisfies but I'm getting close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope
All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around then it's taken away
Leaves me with the feeling that I feel the most

Something to hold when I lose my breath
Will I find something in that
So give me just what I need
Another reason to bleed

Shattered heart..

Dear friend,

You've been gone for so long

One year

So hard to express all my thoughts

I still think of you everyday

I keep thinking why you had to leave 

Why you are'nt here anymore

I wish this all would be just a bad dream

I'm spelling your name in my head over and over again

If I could only turn back time..

You are always in my heart

I miss you..<3

r.i.p 

17.7.1995 - 6.4.2012

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I'll do whatever it takes to be the mistake you can't live without.

Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become


Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

Will you help find the right way up

Or let me take the wrong way down

I don't think that you see
Exactly what you're doing to me

Don't speak
Don't speak

My only one

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself
Anymore